of sky and pastures

was on the phone with a close friend, did some emo talk since it's late at night.

i'm sitting under a tree, basking in the warmth of the clear blue sky, and admiring the sceneric evergreen pastures. i'll feel at ease and contented, not wanting anything more. so if i'm actually sitting under an apple tree, i wouldn't know. so i'll die there not knowing what an apple is and how it tastes like. but if an apple drops, and if i take a bite at it, i might like it. and if i do, i'll probably think that apples only drop and cannot be plucked. and if i do not like the taste of it, i'll just throw it away and think apples cannot be eaten.

but my friend is quite different. in the same circumstances, instead of feeling relaxed under the tree, she'll look around for something, instead of waiting for that something to happen. so if she sees the apples above her, she'll try to reach them, wanting to know what an apple taste like.

so yeah.. i guess i'm the kind of person that lives to die. and i really appreciate who i am.