Monday, July 11, 2005

my pack of lies

finally, after decaying decades
i now lie on my bed, my vision slowly fades
the glass of my windows turning opague
everything around me
transmuting to darker shades

nope, i'm not feeling suicidal. just my usual bout of depression. i think i've lost my biggest motivation, and my ultimate distraction. which explains my absence from home, work, outings, and here. but i guess it's finally enough. i knew from the start i had no counter on this board, let alone the chance to roll a good number. so yep it's just all along the stubborn me, unwilling to play other games.

so i decided from today i should just work my ass off, go for my holiday, and yes show china bitches my sleeping dragon. =D

6 comments:

els said...

and what's this biggest motivation? =)

Anonymous said...

hey man is your biggest motivation and ultimate distraction who u think I think it is?

Jester said...

haha.. brothers of different mothers indeed.

sassyjan said...

CLEMENT PNG JIAN RONG!!

omg. it had been so many many years!
couldn't find an email on ur blog, so figured i had to leave this (very) public comment.

how r u doing?!

(i actually got to know about your blogging through Sandra & linda)

Jester said...

wat a pleasent surprise.
add me fang_jianrong@hotmail.com and tell me how small the world is. ;)

Anonymous said...

hahaha.. wtf.. brothers of different mothers.. only a handful of people i know can be that lame.